March 20, 2012

Good-bye Grandpa ♥


As hours turn into days and days turn into years, time fades away and the season of life comes to a close. In a moment, the world is changed. There are days filled with sorrow, tears of pain, and the word...good-bye.


One day, a little over a week ago, I had awakened to see soft rays of light gently flickering through the window and birds singing their joyous good-morning songs. The beauty of the morning seemed to hold the promise of a wonderful day ahead...thoughts that were replaced by tears of sadness once I heard the words that grandpa was gone.


I saw myself as a little girl wearing the cowboy boots my grandparents had given me, gathering freshly-laid chicken eggs, picking strawberries, eating handfuls of M & M's and playing with kitties.  

I imagined my life without grandpa.  How I'd never again see him sitting in his chair watching the news, smell the smoky scent of his cigarettes, or eat the hodgepodge of items that he would make for lunch.  How there would be no more little bits of teasing, hugs good-bye...or even hello.

Last week, I went out West to say a tearful farewell and see him one last time.  I gazed at his face...I thought about him and grandma and the farm that held so many memories...and then I said good-bye.


I like to imagine that grandpa is like the little seed of a well-loved plant that was whisked away in the wind. Gently carried along in the breeze, he lands softly and begins to grow in beautiful place unseen by my eyes, heaven...the home of his new everlasting life.

Sending you my love, grandpa ♥

xoxo

92 comments:

  1. Tricia this is just so very beautiful. I love my Grandparents like you do. All are gone except my 86 yr. old Grandma whom lives in a one horse town in NE. Her and Grandpa met in gradeschool and were married by age 19 just before he went to war. He passed 12 yrs. ago and I never ever thought she could live so long without him. but she has and she still lives independently in their home and gardens! The photos you have here and words capture how I feel about mine. This post really touches the heart.

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  2. I'm so sorry for your loss Tricia. Sounds like you have some wonderful memories of your grandpa.

    Hugs,
    Judy

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss, Tricia. You have paid a wonderful tribute to your grandfather...he would be proud.

    XO,
    Jane

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  4. A wonderful post with such emotional words and expressive pictures.
    Greetings Dear Rosalie ∙ ∙ ♥ ♥ ∙ ∙

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  5. Your post is a tribute to your grandfather. You have told with beautiful words about what he means to you.

    Love is not gone, memories remain forever!

    I'm sorry for your loss dear Tricia and wish you much strength!

    Many hugs, Ingrid

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  6. A beautiful tribute to your grandfather.
    I am sorry for your loss.

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  7. Sorry, Tricia! I'm old enough that my grandparents all passed away decades ago. It's a real loss for a grandchild, no matter the age. These are wonderful photo images of the memories.

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  8. I'm so sorry for your loss Tricia, your words and pictures are beautiful - you have some lovely memories to hold on to.
    You have made a beautiful tribute to your grandpa.
    Thinking of you!!!!

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  9. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved grandpa. What a beautiful post, and a wonderful tribute to the sweet memories you have of him.

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  10. Such beautiful words......
    Sandra

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  11. what a beautiful tribute........so sorry for your loss.....I will keep your family in my prayers.

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  12. oh, this is so nice. All your photos are so great. I love the one with Wylee. I keep thinking about not ever going there again. I think it makes me sadder now then when we were there last week. I wanted to put up a young picture of him too but my scanner wouldn't work. Anyway, maybe grandpa can read your post and he's smiling and feeling so loved.

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  13. How lucky you are to have had such a wonderful grandfather in your life. Your post is a beautiful tribute.

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  14. I'm so sorry for your loss. Grandparents are certainly a gift from God, and should be honored and cherished.

    My grandmothers both passed away when I was young so I didn't get to know them very well, though I still remember them. My grandfathers lived to be fairly old, but each had their own health problems. My own parents have been wonderful grandparents to my kids, and I've certainly been blessed in this respect.

    You've got some lovely memories to cherish and hold close to your heart.

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  15. I am so sorry that you have lost your dear grandpa.

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  16. Tricia,

    So sorry for your loss. Your words and photos show the love you feel for your family. Know that your grandfather and family will be remembered in my prayers.

    Tiffany

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  17. I'm so sorry for your loss Tricia. Your post was a really beautiful tribute to him. Sounds like he was a wonderful man and a fun grandpa. I lost my grandpa this year too. It's hard to me to imagine going to Washington state (where he lived) and not getting to go visit him there.

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  18. Tricia, you have my sympathies. You've put together a beautiful tribute.

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  19. Oh Tricia, I am so sorry. Losing someone so close to you is never easy. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers. Your grandfather sounded like a wonderful person! I lost my grandfather at an early age. I always feel like a piece of history goes with your grandparents {it does}.

    Hugs from WA,
    ~*Jessica

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  20. I'm so sorry for your loss, Tricia. What a lovely post you've written in tribute to him.

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  21. I am so very sorry my sweet friend, you have all my love and prayers.

    Hugs,
    Anne

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  22. Tricia,
    This is THE MOST beautiful post you done yet...the photos and the words made me cry...a beautiful tribute to your grandfather.

    I lost my last grandparent last year and have really struggled with the finality of it all. It's odd when one whole generation of your life has come to an end.

    I hope you're able to hold on to all those special memories and share them whenever you can. I love to keep my grandparent's spirits alive in my heart.

    I am so sorry. xo

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  23. I'm sorry for your loss, Tricia. You have created a beautiful tribute to your grandpa with your heartfelt words and beautiful photography.

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  24. Bless your heart, I am sorry for your loss - but glad for the wonderful memories he left you. I lost my 83-y-o uncle last week, and as I read your post I realized why it hurt so badly - I never had a grandpa, but my uncle always lived with Grandma and ran the farm. We lived down the road from them, and I spent every minute possible at the farm. So I think losing my uncle was like losing my grandpa. Thanks for giving me that connection. Hugs ~ Mary

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  25. Rose D., NJ3/20/2012

    Tricia, what an absolutely stunning tribute to your grandfather. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family during your time of sorrow.

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  26. What a beautiful tribute...so lovingly done.

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  27. Aahhhh...how very touching...I am so sorry for your loss Tricia. Those memories you will have with you forever. I immediately got a picture of him from your post. Thank you for sharing. Be well. Sending cyber-hugs:) Laurel

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  28. Oh sweets, I am so sorry that your Grandfather passed away...it is so difficult to lose one that you love so dearly. Your tribute to him thru your images is so special, brought tears to my eyes. Reaching out and giving you a warm hug.

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  29. I'm so sorry your grandpa has passed. It seems as if the two of you had a blessed relationship. Even in sorrow you have touch my soul with your words. Praying for you my sweet friend.

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  30. What a beautiful tribute to your grandpa.....I'm very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

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  31. I'm so sorry for your loss Tricia. These goodbyes are so hard, as you said so beautifully. Your photos of the farm are so lovely.

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  32. Sending you hugs and sympathy for the loss of your grandpa. Surely he is rejoicing in the Lord and is right there with you in spirit.

    blessings,
    Danielle

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  33. Dear Tricia,
    This is the most soulful, beautiful, gentle post I have read recently. Everything here is profound LOVE ! I am sorry for your lost and I understand your feelings ; I lost my grandpa four years ago. But what I've learned since then is that you live on in the heart of everyone you have touched and nurtured whale you were alive. As long as we remember the feeling of love we have for someone, he can die without ever really going away, because all the love, all the memories are still with us ( I think professor Morri in " Tuesdays with Morri " says it better.) Your photos and words touch my heart and I believe your grandpa would be proud!

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  34. Tricia, I am so sorry to hear about your Grandpa. You have some wonderful memories of him in better times. What a beautiful tribute to him!

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  35. I am so soory for your loss dear Tricia..you have wonderful memoris of your grandpa..so emotional..
    Hugs Nely!

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  36. Tricia,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I am honored that you have shared your love for him and his sweet spirit with us. We are blessed to have viewed by this beautiful tribute!
    ~Lynne
    [w/L]

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  37. i am sorry for your loss tricia.. its so hard to lose someone you love. i can share your feelings, i love my grandparents too!!
    keep your head up high!!
    love, svenja

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  38. This is just a beautiful, beautiful farewell to your Grandpa, Tricia. You have wonderful memories to carry in your heart.

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  39. Wow my friend..such a beautiful tribute to your grampa. Your photos are so touching..xoxoxoxo

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  40. Tricia,
    I'm very sorry to read that your beloved Grandpa is gone. your memories of him that you wrote are so sweet and I can just picture your idyllic moments with him on the farm. rest assured that he is at peace in Heaven. These photos are truly incredible...I enjoyed and sighed seeing them at the same time.

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  41. I am so very sorry dear Tricia. It is hard to adequately describe what a very important role grandparents play in our lives, but you have done that so beautifully here. It sounds like you have such wonderful memories, and these memories will always be.
    Hugs.
    xo.

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  42. What a beautiful tribute to your grandpa, Tricia...your writing and photos so touched me. I hope my grandchildren will feel that way about me someday. I'm really sorry for your loss and I know he will be very missed...a BIG XO, my friend!

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  43. My heart sank when I read the title of your post.. I am so sorry for you loss.. My heart goes out to you and your family. What a wonderful tribute you have done here.. It made me tear up!!

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  44. Tricia,
    Your words are so poetic and lovely in tribute to your grandpa! I am so sorry for your loss but more glad that you have such sweet memories. I didn't get to know my grandparents very well. That is a loss.

    ♥charlotte

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  45. So sorry for your loss. Your grandpa would be proud of your beautiful and poignant tribute. I still have loving memories of my granddaddy who passed away almost 50 years ago.

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  46. Tricia~~ I am so sorry for the loss of your grandpa. You have put together such a beautiful and heartwarming tribute to him.Your memories will last a lifetime
    ~Cheryl

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  47. Your words are truly a beautiful tribute to the love for your grandpa. Thank you so much for sharing.
    So sorry for your loss ~ sending you a hug.

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  48. Oh sweetie, I am so very sorry. I will never forget the memories that my grandparents gave me may the ones that you hold dear to your heart never fade and may they bring you smiles and joy to your heart always.
    hugs to you.
    xoxox

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  49. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope these fond memories will comfort you as time moves forward. HugsP.S. I'm your newest linky follower

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  50. Tricia,

    I'm sorry for your loss.
    Your words and pics are beautiful.

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  51. Tricia so sorry for your loss...your words paint a picture of a wonderful man...I am working on a post about my mom, who is 86 and ill...your writing is touching.
    Lezlee

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  52. I'm so sorry about your grandpa's passing. Hugs. Please accept my condolences. Your beautiful words & images paint the image of a special spirit. xo

    Lara

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  53. Oh Tricia, I am so sorry for you loss! My grandpa has been ill for the past few years and I worry about him so much. I have beautiful memories of my grandpa too, so I know yours are truly bittersweet.
    I pray that the memories will carry you through the pain of loosing someone so dear!
    Sincerely,
    Melinda

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  54. ...lucky to have had him!All these feeings,all these memories! My sympathies...

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  55. Oh sweet sweet Tricia, i am so sorry for your loss. This is such a wonderful tribute to your lovely grandpapa. I totally understand your sadness. You had such a beautiful memory of him and thank you so much for sharing it with us. This post made me teary as it brings back memories of those i loved and who have passed on. Have a lovely merry happy mid-week and love to you! Sending lots of love and prayers your way.

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  56. So sorry to hear of the loss of your precious Grandfather. Thank you for sharing your love for him through your thoughtful words and touching photos.

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  57. Oh, I'm SO terribly Sorry Tricia!!!
    It's never easy to let them go...ever.
    Beautifully written...so much love....(((((HUG)))))

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  58. So sorry Tricia. What a beautiful tribute to your grandpa. I miss mine so much too. May the wonderful memories carry you through this difficult time.

    Hugs,
    Debbie

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  59. Tricia, I am so sorry for your loss. Your words have touched me, though, and I feel your love for your Grandpa in them.

    Sending you healing heart thoughts today,

    Angie

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  60. Oh honey so sorry for the loss of your dear grandpa. I know how dear he was to you by how beautifully you wrote about him. May his memories live forever in your heart and make you smile every time you think of him. Sending you a big hug!

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  61. I am so sorry, Grand Fathers are such very special people, I lost mine in july, at 93, and there isn't a day that I don't still feel my Poppies love. Remember to take time for yourself right now.

    My thoughts are with you-
    Tig

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  62. You have my deepest sympathy. Last year I lost my husband on 2/26 and my dad on 8/26. There are no words of comfort, really. Just know that those who know you, and those of us who have never even met you, care deeply and suffer along with you.

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  63. Sorry for your loss, Tricia. Lovely memories of your grandpa.


    Kelly

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  64. I'm so sorry for your loss Tricia! You have some wonderful memories of a special man. Thinking of you. xoxo

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  65. Oh what a sweet tribute to your Grampa, I am sure he is looking down and smiling upon you. The photo's are so lovely and dreamy.

    I am so sorry your your loss.

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  66. Tricia, I'm so sorry that your Grandpa has passed. It sounds like you have wonderful memories to carry with you forever. I understand how you feel because my Grandmother passed on two weeks ago following hip surgery. She was a collector of everything and was so generous to share pretty things with me. Aren't we lucky to have had such sweet people in our lives? Take care and keep those memories alive.-------- Shannon

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  67. I am so sorry for your loss. This is such a beautiful post and tribute to him. There is nothing like the love of a Grandpa. I hope you find peace.
    Jo-Anna

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  68. Just beautiful..your photo's and words brought me to tears.
    I am so sorry for your loss.
    God Bless,
    Diane

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  69. So beautiful. My condolences to you and your family.

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  70. I'm so sorry to hear that someone close to you has passed away. I don't like to say that they are lost, because you keep them with you, they're still in your heart. Your images and beautiful tribute to him are a testament to that. *hugs*

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  71. Tricia, so sorry for your loss, grandparents hold such a special place in our hearts. Kindredly Lynnie

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  72. What a beautiful tribute to your grandfather. I'm so very sorry for your loss. (((Hug)))

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  73. How nice to discover this meravigloso Blog, the photos are wonderful ..Loriana

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  74. It's hard to see the loved ones of a generation slipping away, along with what they have represented in our lives. Each of us are sowing seeds each day.

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  75. Such a beautiful tribute to your grandfather!
    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  76. I,m so sorry to here.........but I think your memories are good......
    Hugs from Sweden
    Håkan ( The Roseman)

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  77. Dearest sweet tricia, how are you? I hope things are looking a little brighter and i hope your weekend is off to a beautiful start. Happy sunday and lots of LOVE to you and yours!

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  78. This is so beautiful post, full of warmy memories!♥ This post was beautiiful tribute for your grandpa, who you loved so much.
    I`m sorry for your loss.

    Greetings from Finland,
    Marge

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  79. I'm so sorry for your loss Tricia. Such beautiful memories, and I love your thoughts about the seed. It is hard when they're no longer here to make new memories, but you have many lovely moments to remember with fondness.

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  80. Oh Tricia, I am so sorry for your loss. You have written a beautiful tribute to someone you love dearly and your wonderful photos also express your loving remembrances. Just remember, his love never says good-bye, your grandpa's love is always with you.
    This is a beautiful post with lovely sweet memories.
    XO

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  81. What a beautiful tribute to your beloved grandpa. I am so sorry for your loss. I understand your pain so well. Please don't hesitate to reach out anytime you need to and I will be there.

    Cindy at Rosehaven Cottage

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  82. I'm so sorry about your grandpa Tricia! No matter the age or knowing months ahead that they may be leaving this earth soon because of failing health, when the time comes it still is so painful to loose them. It sounds like your grandpa was a wonderful man who loved you very much and whom you have very special memories that will keep him close in your heart forever!
    What a beautiful tribute you have shared of him and the difference he has made in your life.

    Sending my heart of hugs to you.
    ♥Lee Ann

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  83. Tricia, i did not know pain could look so beautiful... but i am sure it feels otherwise though. sending much love and light your way,sandra

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  84. beautiful tribute to your loved one, blessings to you and your family ~

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  85. Your post made me cry - what an absolutely beautiful good-bye to grandpa. So sorry for your loss - your lovely memories will keep your grandpa close to your heart forever.

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  86. Oh sweet Tricia - I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a patriarch like that. I will pray for you during this time of mourning - and that each memory you cherish deeply in your heart.

    Fabulous photos and such sweet words....this post is so special. xoxo

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  87. Tricia...I'm so sorry for your loss but this tribute is absolutely beautiful. I hope you find peace in your memories.

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  88. Hi Tricia,
    That was a very touching and lovely tribute to your grandpa. You were very blessed to have such a beautiful man in your life.

    So sorry for your loss.

    ~ Stephanie

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  89. Tricia, this is such a lovely tribute to your grandpa! I am so sorry for your loss.

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  90. What a beautiful post and
    such sweet, sweet memories.
    I am so sorry to be reading
    this, now, and send prayers
    to you and your family, Tricia.

    xx Suzanne

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  91. sweet memories....
    I loved my grandparents soooo much, too.
    saying good bye has been hard over the years with the loss of each them.
    I grew up visiting both sets each and every sunday.....
    lots of memories in my life are filled with snapshots of them.

    praying for your family as you experience such a deep loss.

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